Monday, May 7, 2012

The Fool

I don't want to be this fool, sitting here waiting. Do you get it? Can you see? The thoughts of this girl are blowing away. I made the moves for me and you and it seems it's all a waste. Love is real, a fragile pawn in this play. And now all I see is you walk away. The stronger of us was you, so persistent in your games. Maybe it was me, the one who lost the one with all the pain?

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Life is a Gift

I am thankful for my life that I have been given, I am thankful I am alive and well and have the honor of having friends and family in my life. I am thankful for my job and the paycheck it provides me. I am thankful for the ability to walk, talk, hear, taste, feel and see. I am thankful for each day I have knowing full well it could be my last. Today is a good day, I am alive, I have a job and I have friends and family who love me. We are given this gift of life when we are born, a precious span of time so short and fleeting. Tomorrow is another day but for some it will never come. A friend of mine died a few days ago and it got me thinking, we all seem so sure our friends and family will be here tomorrow. We think we’ll wake up and everything will be the way it was. That we’ll be able to call our mother and ask for her recipe for cheesy potatoes, or call our father and ask how to change the blade on the mower. But in reality you never know if this day will be their last or yours for that matter. Life is too short to forget to tell your best friend that you love them or give your grandmother a hug when you say goodbye after Christmas. Each day you meet new people or you spend time with your loved ones. Don’t let that time slip away, make sure to make a new friend, to tell your family you love them or give your friend a hug just because. Tomorrow is uncertain tomorrow is not promised.

I remember thanksgiving two years ago, we spent the holiday up with my grandpa and grandma in Wisconsin.  My aunt Toni and my uncle Russ were there along with a few of my grandmothers kids. We gathered around for dinner I made sure to sit in front of my grandfather. As we ate our turkey and stuffing he was his usual self, full of piss and vinegar even though he had oxygen tubes around his nose and the skin on his arms was turning black. I remember smiling at this old man, he wasn’t the best grandpa but no matter what I loved him. His faults meant nothing at that moment, just that I was there in his presence enjoying his laughter and hearing his usual quips. As the sun set behind the trees and the frogs began to sing we began to prepare for our departure home. I gave him a long hug and a kiss on the cheek and made sure to tell him that I loved him. About two weeks later we got a call that my grandpa had passed away, he had a massive heart attack getting dressed and he was just gone. My heart felt like it had been torn out of my chest and my lungs were full of water, I couldn’t catch my breath. I had just seen him two weeks ago, he was alive talking and laughing. Now he was gone just like that in a split second. I was thankful I had made it to thanksgiving to see him one last time. But it that moment I realized my brothers weren’t so lucky. Both couldn’t make it to thanksgiving that year due to work and a family trip. And now the chance to see him again was gone forever. I know there was nothing that could be done but I still felt the lose that they did. Our grandpa was gone and there was nothing we could do about it. I have a shot gun shell sitting on my desk from his funeral and I look at it every day and think of him. Thankful I had him in my life, thankful for those who have already passed, thankful for the ones I still have and thankful for the ones to come.

Life is a gift; sometimes it may not be the best, sometimes it might not go that way you want it and sometimes it can be grand but in the end it is your life and it’s the only one you’ll get. Make the most of it; go sit outside and enjoy the sun, go watch your children play softball, take your grandparents out to dinner and most of all have fun with those you have around you.

10 things I love

1.       The warm kiss from a lover
2.       A cats nose
3.       Clean sheets
4.       A soft thunder storm at night
5.       Getting off work
6.       The first taste of watermelon in the summer
7.       Payday
8.       The warm sun after a rainy day
9.       Christmas music on Christmas Eve
10.   The first dip into the lake after a long cold winter

10 things I dislike

1.       Getting up for work
2.       Reality TV
3.       Paying bills
4.       Being angry
5.       Getting shots
6.       Cleaning the kitty litter
7.       Losing someone close
8.       Douchbags and their popped collars
9.       Buoys (A phobia I have)
10.   Going home from the cabin


Monday, May 23, 2011

The first of hopefully many

Ok ok, I've started a blog. I've been thinking of doing so for quite some time. Here will be my public thoughts, ramblings and maybe some reviews of things I've seen and done. Or probably things that happen in my life. I've been told I need to start one so here goes. Lets see if I can get some followers :)